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Friday, September 14, 2012

macam tu lah perangai 'kawan'

hey ! ni yy ade benda nak cerita . alkisah 'kawan' lah kunun ! aritu kan yy de post lam entry weekend :) tu kan ? yy sleptover umah kawan lama kat seri iskandar . pendekkan cerita , dah lah kerjanya mengutuk acha je ! rupanya yy yg dah bezaman xde kat ctu pon dikutuk nya jugak ! haissh susah lah hidup klau famous sgt nih :P org asyik2 sebut nama kita je .. hmm , yy kesian tau bila ade org jealous mcm tuh . sedih ! dpn pijak semut pon x mati , blakang mak kaw mengata klau bole smpi muntah hijau haa ! dah nak mampos sgt agaknya :P si perempuan sorg tu haa , beriya mengata yy ni tiap2 malam kluar ngan lelaki , tukar2 pulak tu ! yy kluar ngan llki pon dia nak saket hati ! kunun dia baik laa , x kluar mlm . sudahnya skarang dia pulak yg kluar mlm tukar2 lelaki , abes yg keje , merempat n student pon jadi dia sapu ! yy tukar2 lelaki pon dorg tu byk duit , dah tentu yy yg untung . dia ? desperate sgt ke ?? yy ni tukar2 lelaki yy dah tentu single , so yy bole bekawan ngan 1000000 lelaki pon . dia ?? dah terang2 ade bf lgi nak scandal kunun ! baik sgt ke ? yg si gelabah buta sekor lgi tu pulak , org masok club dia msok club ! then org crita pasal minum sket , dan2 dia pon nak crita masok club minum ! eh bodoh , aku ni kluar masok club x minum x gelabah pon !! btol nor kata , badan cam almari nak menari cmne tah ! euww such a sick bitches ! tu lah hidup stalker org je ! then apa org buat , apa org pakai sume nak tiru . cian tipu mak ayah kat penang tu ! buta dorg igt anak dorg blaja pakai tudung sume , padahal yg adooo ! silap rambut kaw dah jadi cam singa je if x ilang tudung tu . jadi lah dri sndri doe ! nak meniru org wtpe ? malu lah , dah lah dari mula masok uitm aku tgk kaw dah mcm tong sampah dah , sume org kawan ngan kaw end up nya dorg tendang kaw free2 je ! sbb apa ? perangai buruk kaw tu lah ! yg berok sekor ni lgi , bekawan ngan org sbb nak tumpang snng org je . dlu aku g fakulti bawak kete beriya doe nak rapat ngan aku ! siang mlm text , kol aku dah mcm hape dah ! then bila aku rapat ngan acha nor sume kaw saket ati kaw kata pulak aku bawak mulut ! dah tentu lah kaw ni yg haiwan perosak :) skang ni , kaw dah kawan ngan si almari tu kaw tinggal acha cmtu je pulak ! yelah sbb si bangang tu bawak kreta kan ! dlu time acha bawak kereta kaw gesek2 ke acha jugak ! abvious giler la ! hidup menumpang senang org je . equal dgn  perempat lah tu ! mujur aku dah abes blaja if x aku lempang2 2 ekor berok ni ! dah mcm hape dah ! haishh , i wish u both gonna die n burn in hell lah ! hidup pon org benci je ! xyah lah ssh2 nak hidup lgi :p korg x mengah ke mengata org je ? aku yg dgr2 cerita ni pon letih tau ! yy sarankan dripada korg sebok hal org baik pegi saloon fix rmbut singa tu ke , pegi facial putihkan muka ke . pegi mandi bunga wangikan ketiak busuk tu ke kan lgi bebaloi :) hmmm , god bless u both lah eh !
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

tamat episod imran ..

assalamualaikum ..
hari ni 14 september 2012 .. imran lafaskan jugak apa yg sepatutnya dia lafaskan dari dlu lagi .. yy bangga dgn imran . arini yy nak share dgn realfanta tentang kisah cinta yy yg penuh dgn rahsia . tentang siapa imran ...

imran is afendy . umur 34 years old . hes a married man . tekejut x ? afendy baik org nya , klau tidak xkan kot yy bole jatuh hati dgn dia :) hhmmm , masa mula2 lagi yy kenal afendy yy dah nasihatkan hati ni , "jgn yaya , suami org tu :)" tpi hati ni degil , rsa mcm nak sgt mendekati lelaki yg bernama afendy tuh . x sangka yy x bertepuk sblh tgn . rasanya x perlu yy ulang lgi apa yg yy pernah cerita pasal si afendy ni kan . yy beruntung sbb pernah disayangi oleh lelaki yg yy pernah cyg . cukup lah , yy puas . tiba2 arini dia kol n ckp "b , i x mampu b . i x mampu nak hancurkan kebahagiaan keluarga i" yy ttiba rasa mcm great ! finally dia sedar siapa dia sbnarnya . tipu lah klau x sedih , tpi yy dah menangis sekali n yy janji itu adalah air mata terakhir yy utk insan yg bernama afendy . yy yakin yy akan dpt lelaki yg lebih baik dri dia lgi :) itu pasti . yy cuba utk face benda ni secara matang . n rsanya yy boleh kot :) semalam anniversary kita yg ke 2 bulan . arini afendy tamat kan semua :) 2 bulan tu sekejap tpi rsa mcm dah lama pulak . dia buat keputusan yg betul , tpi sejujurnya yy xkan maafkan afendy even sklipon ! n seminngu ni dia x cntct yy n yy rsa mcm biasa je .. x tau knape mungkin cuba membiasakan diri n dah biasa pon . hati yy hancur remuk berkecai . n i was just thinking mcm love ni bullshit tau . farah said "thnk god u did it ! dunt find love , let love find u" definitely i will doll :) yeayyy finally im free ! single again n i can do wat i wanna do :) hidup mcm dlu :) be a real yaya ! hmm , yy sendri tertanya2 , bila episod imran akan tamat , n see ! arini adalah episod terakhir imran . lepas ni xde dah lah korg rsa nak termuntah asyik baca pasal imran je . hahah !
ya Allah , tabahkan hati hambamu yg x serik2 ni ya Allah ! yy ok insyaallah :) yy still ade family , farah , shaman :) yy ok ! hmm , abesnya post ni maka tamatlah kisah imran :) lepas ni yy single ! omgeeesss masing2 dah bole isi borang eh :P ok yy abes kat cni dlu sbb yy ade post lain nak share after this ! see u guys there yeah :)

imran <3 yaya
13 julai 2012 - 14 september 2012
assalamualaikum
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

weekend :)


seawal 7:00am mood untuk mengupdate blog pon dtg :) utk minggu ni im not going out for jogging .. not really in d mood , smngat yg makin hilang .. but god will this will only take 1 week utk yy pulihkan hati ni :) ya , cinta itu indah .. dan ditinggalkan itu parah :P trima kasih untuk sang lelaki ! puihhh , lupakan mereka jom kita preview my weekend activities :)
ok2 , ni nak story ! last week yy sleepover kat umah my crazy bitches near seri iskandar :) so excited thereeee ! i really miss my anje si athiena tuh ! x brubah , still lgi senget mcm dulu ! athiena tetap athiena tpi environment nya quite different laa . haishh so annoying .. n i miss my nooroon n acha too but they were not there sbb noor dah pon praktikal near johor n acha mcm biasa laa every weekend blek kl :) so mlm tu just kluar mkn mcd n borak2 je :) yy sempat cerita kat iena what was happened while im working kat bayu view hotel dlu . dgn siapa yy kawan , n siapa yg dpt curi hati ni .. pape lah !
so , iena ade lah advice yy n yy rsa mcm betul jugak apa yg dia ckp .. yy ni kdg2 keliru dgn diri sndri . x bole pk btol ke tidak ke apa yg yy buat ni ... hmmm , tpi yy tido umah diorg semalam je because i must come back home on sunday . ade open house pulak n didakwa bahawa org tu msak uk yy pulak :P mmg tidak lah klau xnk dtg :) im touched :P heeee ! so bgn pg2 dah melalak masing2 nak bekfas ! cun x ? bgn2 ngan x cuci muka , gosok gg tu lgi lah tidak .. tros lepak kat al-bayan :P sedapnya ayam diaaaa !! then tros g tesco bli2 brg sket ! pegi paki boxer pulak !! hahaha , iena ngan busuk2 nya tros pkai tudung .. minah tu kata "aku kan dah nak kawen , kne pki tudung yaaaa" :P lol !! tpi judi tetap judi ye iena :P ok god bless u hahahaha :) then afternoon tu dorg hantar yy blk .




x tau lah bila lgi nak pegi cna .. mybe tunggu nor ade dulu kot like what me n noor already plan !! btol kata noor , mmg perlu diajar dia tuh :P ok bai !


blek2 je , ngan kelam kabutnya tros tukar bju n taraaaaaaaa , yy pon bertukar rupa lah :P rumah openhouse tu umah ustazah , segan la yaya :) tpi yy tau yy comel je pki tudung so xyah nak puji sgt2 lah :P hmmm , weyy umi tu msak punya lah sedap doe ! issh x terkata lah sedapnya , bertambah2 lah ktorg sume mkn ! wat muka x malu jelah , heran plak kita kan :P pastu si kakcik bengong ni ajak2 amek gmbr plak lah ape lah menyampah je :P ceeyyh tpi join je pon ! ok ni yy nak share skt gmbr2 poyo kitaorg kat realfanta :)










hahaha sorry yer kain tersingkap sket :P kesah plak kita kan !!















LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Wednesday, September 5, 2012

selesai kisah bayu view hotel ...

hey realfanta :) im home .. im glad im already in perak :) happy dah blek perak .. home sweet home balek :) well , mesti x pecaya kan ? kejap nak quit kejap nak stay ... here d story ..

mmg yy dah decided x nak quit . nak stay lgi working there wif my doll , farrah :) before d day im quit , yaya n farrah went out n bought a lot of diet food . until end of december kan :P but what happened that evening , btol2 menyakitkan hati .. first , imran suddenly cut off d line ! saketnya hati ni .. n then wan buat perangai xnk dtg keje pulak ! si bangang tu lgi 1 ! saket lgi hati nih .. then me pulak kne paksa kerja lebih msa . 7:00pm smpi 7:00am ! x gila ke ? yy upset sgt . kecik ati ngan imran lgi laa sedih , dah menangis punya lama . k.k pulak buat taik x abes2 .. upset sgt ! so yy buat dcsion nak quit jugak d next day .. i knoe farrah cant accept it but i really need to go :( yy kuat pon sbb ade imran .. bila imran buat cmtu , hancur nya hati tuhan je yg tau :( hmmm , so mlm tu jugak yy kol ibu soh dtg pagi esok ..
hmm tu lah citer nyer !
so , now yy kat umah dah .. 

farrah , cian dia .. tpi yy sure she can do it n shes not alone .. shaman ade sana :) she will get new friends im sure :) i will accompany her from here :) will always keep in touch wif my 2 gossipgurls farrah n shaman :P haha ! miss diorg damn much :( but life must go on .. insyallh , farrah n me will further our study next year on march n we will havoc back together :) 

imran , jejaka jambu yaya tu lgi sorg ! ketok nnt baru tau .. btol ckp farrah , kurg dari 10 kali imran buat yy nanges tpi still hadap nak tnggu imran ! yy x boleh tngglkan imran .. yy cyg dia sgt . slagi yy mmpu sabar yy xkn tngglkan imran . n klau imran ikhlas syg yy imran xkn kecewakan yy :) kan sll nasihat diri sndri .. sabar lah duhai hati :) hmmm , mmg yy bru kenal imran , tpi insyaallah yy x salah buat keputusan . klau xde ape2 halangan nya , taun dpn kot bru jmp imran .. bgi lah ruang utk kita x jumpa sekejap yer cyg .. kita kne uji diri kita .. yy cyg imran , tpi klau sungguh xde jodoh yy akan pujuk hati yy sndri .. tpi klau sekarang , yy x mmpu nak tngglkan imran .. biar lah imran yg tngglkan yy . farrah always asked me "knape kaw syg dia sgt yaya ? dia buat kaw menangis je ! bukak hati kaw siket bole x ?? kaw muda yy !! bkn sepatutnya kaw duduk tunggu imran ! go n find another guy !! jgn jadi bodoh !!!" yes farrah ! mmg yy bodoh ! tpi yy xkan regret jadi bodoh utk tunggu imran :) imran x sempurna .. tpi yy yakin dia bole happykan yy ..

hmm , so here we r .. yaya dah de kat perak :) farrah n shaman terus keje kat bayu view smpi ujung taun :) imran pulak dah turun kapal .. nak settlekan hal dia semua n back to klang .. yy yakin cinta yy utk imran xkan kemana .. insyaallah :) 

pssst2 , nak bisik sket :) yaya dah brubah sket daaa :P heeee sronok nya .. ari2 bgn kol6 nak dating ngan Allah jap :P sehari 5 kali pegi dating ngan Dia :) im glad to be me :) insyaallah sket2 yy akn brubah yer :) yy x brubah sebb imran , tpi yy kuat sebb imran :) ok berita gembira lgi , sabtu ni yy ade interview kat aeon seksyen 18 .. jusco tu laa :P doakan yy dpt keje cna .. bole dpt pengalaman baru yeay :) tnggu imran call n gonna let him knoe :) so , got to go .. nnt apa2 pasal yy , i will surely update it here :) love n hug <3
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Monday, August 27, 2012

itu janji yaya ....


hey , new post eh :)
well , me n imran ... we back together .. i cant lah wey , ssh btol nak lupakan myimran tuh .. last raya nyte , he called me back n we talked :) hmm i really cant ! then we met again last week ! aiyayaaaaiii i miss him badly :) we spent time together be4 he went to his kapal . i hate that kapal very much ! tpi imran pegi keje , then its ok :) hmm , dah brp ari imran xde .. u knoe i promised him like 'im yours' baby .. so yy rasa mcm dah mse utk yy berubah .. yy yakin , this is d ryte time :) so imran told me like "i can hold that right but promised me u wont do anything bad behind my back !" so i keep his word very well deep in my heart .. d only person who knows bout me n imran are shaman n farrah my 'gossipgurls' :P now , imran kat kapal , me still be me yg imran nak n me want it too ! so imran cant simply said like "u x bole berubah smata2 sbb i b ..." no im not ! i promised to myself too lah cyg !! so farrah n shaman knew that im alone now while imran atas kapal nuuuuuuuuunn jauh kat tgh laut ! so they just invited me to join them tgk liveband near sunway n dfntly i want it !! yeayy :) but how can i let imran knoe because i cant call him n i just can wait until imran call me . but me still went there with shaman n farrah n will let imran know once he call me nnt :) while we wre at d liveband , im glad ! im proud to be myself ! i just drank pineapple juice n aftr a few hours 1 of fruit punch :) im glad ! thank you Allah coz u protected this 'jahil' girl :) shaman n farah said "you r such a strong gurl yaya , we dunt trust u at all but now we knoe that u will not do any bad things after u promised to ureself n imran" im glad too !! i knoe i can do it ! but apa yg sedihnya ....
sejak imran naik kapal , dia sll syak yaya mula buat benda x baik n x snonoh sbb dia xde . hina sgt ke yy ni ? apa x layak lnsung ke yy nak berubah ? knape yer imran x trust yy lnsung ? yy fikir dari hari ke sehari ... everytime imran kol .... well u knoe cara dia tny tu yg buat yy rsa x sedap hati .. nape dia syak yy x tentu pasal ? yy try tny imran jugak .. n he said "yeah , jujur i ckp mmg i syak u .. tpi i x tuduh" apa bezanya ? yy xnk ade prasaan yg pelek2 camni .. yy really miss imran tau :( tpi klau cmni lah jadinya , yy rsa better imran jgn kol sll . yy xnk dia syak2 yy . n yy tkot nnt klau imran terlalu x yakin ngan yy , yy takot yy pon akn give up utk semua nih .. yy perlukan imran ... perlu sgt2 ! yy happy everytime imran kol , last 3 nytes , yy bgn pagi tgk ade miskol dri kapal , so yy pegi mnd yy wak hp skli msok toilet sbb yakin lah kunun imran akn kol lgi :P tup tup mmg dia kol !!! heeee hebat kan :P tpi he turned off my mood sbb dia tny , u kat mne ni ?? buat apa ni ?? n me told him im in d toilet ! n he asking me again n again "ckp btol2 u ktne ni ??" eh , sikit x byk yy trase sgt .. yy beriya gelabah hayam bwk hp bagai tpi disyaki pulak :( esok nya aftr hari yy pegi tgk liveband ngan shaman n farah , he called me as usual .. so yy citer lah yy g tgk liveband apa sumer .. imran responded me very well . but he said jgn terlalu lewat blek n jgn sll sgt .. im glad he tolerate bout that but if let say imran kata jgn pegi dah dfntly yy xkan pegi da .. seriously ! yy bole je .. tpi yg x sedapnya , dia syak yy minum beer kat cna .. sumpah x ! yy minum pineapple n fruitpunch je .. nape lah imran ni .. yy ni nmpk mcm syaitanirajim sgt ke ?? :P geram pulak hati ni .. btol lah dia kta dia ade hak tu so dia gunakan hak tu .. tpi yy bgi dia hak utk jga n btolkan yy bkn hak utk syak x tentu hala .. ive promised to myself , if i did anything bad behind him , i will back off from him .. itu jnji yaya .. yy ok .. x apa lah duhai hati klau imran x pecaya , tpi yy n tuhan tau yy x penah tipu imran .. itu pasti :) yy tkot nnt klau imran terlalu syak yy nnt dia tawar hati . tpi btol jugak , klau xde jodoh mne nak paksa .. bia shaman n farrah said that im stupid ! wasting my time with him ! im still young n should enjoy my life ! bkn duduk diam dgr ckp imran ! im young !!!! but i knoe , what is d best for me . klau ditkdirkan kptusan yy tu akn buat yy kecewa suatu hari nnt , yy jnji yy xkn penah rsa menyesal dgn keputusan yy tu :) yy cyg imran .. xpe , biar stu dunia kta yy bodoh , sbb yy tau yy kenal siapa imran . klau suatu hari nnt dia kcewakan yaya , its ok :) at least yy penah dpt ksih cyg imran ... yy x brani janji episod myimran dlm realfanta ni smpi bila , tpi yg yaya tau , dia ade dlm hati ni :) sabar ye hati , bia imran x pecya kaw jnji kaw x khianat janji kaw sndri . igt tu nurul hidayah norazlan .. 

ni pic mse yy n farrah n shaman tgk liveband aritu .. sronok jugak lah :) checkidouuutttt









LiVe LaUgH LoVe

happy eid mubarak 2012 )


hey realfanta ...
after a few weeks bru yy sempat nak update blog .. haha bkn busy mne pon cuma kemalasan yg terlampau jer :P well , hows raya ? it must be nice eh ? rya yy quite best . belah ibu pon havoc , belah ayh pon not bad .. hmm , xde wat pe pon . cuma melaram x tentu hala ngan baju baru then settle :P tu lah raya :P yy bli heels baru beriya tpi yg sedap tu blek kg pakai selipar je pon .. ujan pulak !! kang tenggelam tumit lam tanah lak ) well , yy x byk citer nak share utk raya taun nih .. sume biasa jer ) so ni de galeri raya sket utk realfanta :) utk raya belah ayh pic still lam camera so mybe nnt yy msok fb je kot ...



kazen yg paling sewel !!!






LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Saturday, August 18, 2012

perasaan bila balek perak :)


haa tu rambut penyek saya :P hahah ! chill yeah , i just back from saloon , punya la rmai . dri kol 10 pgi yy pegi , kol3 ptg ni bru siap .. so puas hati ! along pon de kol tdi , gtau 29 august cnfirm turun kapal . so 1september2012 ni haa yy jmp along ! along nak dtg yeayyy :))) x lama dah .. abes raya , yy blek klang , 2 mnggu then along dtg , pastu slamenyer yy akan blek perak .. xkan dtg blek dah ! yy kena sabar sket je lgi .. so , yy xnak pk apa 2 3 arini ... yy nak beraya je ! baju dah vogue , heels dah ade :P so jom beraya !!!
happy eid mubarak 2012 <3


LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Friday, August 17, 2012

live ure beautiful life yaya :)

gosh im so excited ... last nyte my friend came from bangi n brought me to aeon bukit tinggi n we shopping !! yeayy :) yy dah bli heels bru ! so exciteddddddd :) then yy mcm released lah yy crite sume kat dia .. semua yy crita ... actually , izz is a nice guy jugak laaa . dia tu nak scandal tuh .. tpi bila yy tumpang his ear , dia mybe tukr nawaitu dia .. dia kta baik yy blek perak . nnt smbung blaja bole je jumpa lgi .. hmm byk lah jugak advice dia yg yy rsa relevant jugak laa . then azrul aminur ... lgi nice :) bole pulak dia tu buddy ngan yop yy kat upsi ! ishhh2 :P at least dah ade org nak kejut yy pgi2 :) dia pon nice ... not bad jugak orgnya :) ok , yg ni lgi best ! along nak dtg ujung bln ni !!!!!!!!!!!!! argghhh im soo happy :) rindu nya ke dia !! sumer org dah tau . then ttiba k.fida tny , klau dua2 ade yy nak pilih yg mne .. "k.fida , dlu hati yy berisi , definitely yy akan pilih dia . now , hati yy kosong . im not attached to anybody so i can go out n do whatever i want :) along penting , hes my brother :)"
lepas tu bye2 klang .. im going back to perak , live my life n nnt further study .. dah yaya yer , dah happy tu teruskan happy . igt , jgn amek risiko lgi :) btol izz kta , "knape u ssh nak jmp cinta sejati u , sbb u terlampau mengharap .. sabar yy , dia akan dtg sndri :)" insyaallah will do :) 
tabah yer yaya :) u muda lgi ! enjoy ure beautiful life :)
well , selamat hari raya for all muslims :) yy excited sgt ptg ni balek perak ! 
assalamualaikum semua <3
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Thursday, August 16, 2012

akhirnya ....

yaya rsa ini yg terbaik .. sudah sudah lah tu .. yy x mampu nak tahan smua ni lagi .. ari2 menangis . nak tanggung smeua nih .. kan x betul tu .. well , im just joking n apa yg dia marah sgt tah ... he did asked me "kawan smpi bila2 bole ?" .. how la , u attached to sumbody else kan .. salah lah semua nih :) yy rasa ini keputusan yg terbaik . arini , yy lepaskan dia .. mmg kita xde jodoh .....

imran ,
terima kasih utk awk sbb sudi syg sy . awk , sy tau awk dah fed up sbnrnya , sbb tu bila sy gurau po awk dah xleh trima . sy phm tu .. awk cek in lah kat hotel lain yer . sy ok je . awk mmg terbaik yg sy penah jumpa . n sy akan pastikan sy akan jmp yg lagi baik dri awk . sy letih awk , nak tipu diri sndri .. cukup2 lah tu . sy penat sgt , menahan rasa ni :( sy x mmpu dah awk . sy puas awk , puas sgt .. bercyg2 , bergadoh , merajuk2 , lari2 lgi .. semua sy merasa buat ngan awk . sy tau awk penat , tpi awk turun jugak bawah pujuk sy .. thnks yer awk .. sy cuba cri mne buruknya awk utk sy benci awk sket . tpi sy x jmp .. sbb tu kdg2 benda xde apa pon sy cuba gak nak wat gado . bia nnt sy tawar hati . tpi sy silap , sy x mmpu sbnrnya .. ttiba sy terfikir , nape sy kne seksa hati n jiwa sy ni wak . imran , berat sy nak buat keputusan ni . tpi life must go on , sy akan quit end of this month . maknanya smpi bbila pon kita xkn jmp da . sy x kesal klau along tngglkan sy sbb sy pilih awk , tpi apa yg sy kesal , awk tngglkan sy seolah2 kita x penah ade kenangan .. itu yg sy sedih . sbb sy gagal jadi yg terbaik utk awk .. tpi sy yakin , sy pernah bahagiakan awk :) itu pasti :) imran , sy harap ni keputusan yg terbaik ... lepas ni awk bukan lagi dlm hati sy .. sy cuba imran ...

16 august 2012 - 9:38am , saya yaya cumil @ cyg awk melepaskan awk imran @ my baby dri hati ni .. cukup lah yer cyg . jgn siksa jiwa sy lgi .. sy janji , sy akan jumpa peganti awk dan dia akan jadi yg lagi baik dri awk .. btol , sy xkan kawen dengan welder :) btol ckp awk .. terima kasih ye wak ..
assalamualaikum
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Wednesday, August 15, 2012

terima wahai hati ..

imran mmg dah berubah ... dia hitung semua perangai yy . endup nya dia mengeluh sndri .. dah x penah nak pujuk2 yy :( sedihnya ... btol yy sedih . hati , knape seksa diri sendri .. u muda lgi yy :) hidup lah happy2 , nangis hari2 pon u x untung yy :( pheww , saket rahang menahan sedih ... baru 3 hari yy , imran awk dah hilang ... wey sedih nya ! 2 ari lepas imran bgtau good news n tros yy de selera nak mkn .. tpi arini , i lost my appetite back :( yaya knape jadi bodoh ni ?? balek lah perak yy ! pegi kat ibu n ayah n family sume ! jgn seksa diri cmni !! lama kelamaan imran kaw akan pergi tinggalkan kaw jugak :( i cant accept it . i want myimran back :(
b , please ... :(
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

myimran ...

ok ni citer myimran pulak ... yy rindu imran sgt laa . nth bila dia nak dtg jmp yy . tpi dia busy kan , nak wat cmne ! klau yy jumpa bos dia yg bgi byk keje tu rsa cam nak smack down je ! x pon dumbel kan je ! tpi kerja tetap kerja ... dah 3 ari x jmp imran .. n yy rasa mcm imran jauh sket da . klau 3 mnggu ? 3 bln ? 3 taun xyah citer lah . rindu nya yy ngan imran .. agak2 dia rsa x apa yg yy rasa ? dia kata dia rindu .. ok , i trust him :) tpi , yy nak imran yy dlu laa . yy x tau nak express kan cmne . tpi yg penting , yy rindu sgt imran :( yy hope slagi dia ade dlm klang ni , dia x berubah ... hmm , ssh nya klau x bole control our own heart ! im tired ! like seriously , but yy x cukup kuat nak deny semua nih .. itu yg betul nya .. control yaya control ... tpi d most thing yg pling yy x sedap , yy tkot imran berubah bila blek dri raya nnt :( tu pling yy tkot .. i hope so tak lah nnt .. i love u baby !
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

along ...

hey realfanta :)
i knoe u good :) well , yaya nak citer pasal along ... dah 3 ari dia x kol .. smlm yy blek hostel awl , so lam kol8 tu dah lightoff sume igt nak tido daa . tpi igt along dah lma x kol . ttiba phone bunyi from kapal !! yeayyy :P
so , me talk with along laaa n as usual mmg yy citer or mengadu pape kat dia be4 ... but since i hve my imran , i thot maybe i can share everything with him . walau pon yy tau imran x berminat pon nak tau .... sll yy becerita dia buat muka toyer je !! eee benci nya !! mybe dia penat keje kot , maybe (sigh)
so along de gtau 27august ni dia turun kapal . so dia akan lepak 2 3 ari kat umah dlu bru dtg bayu view jumpa yy . yy gtau dia mungkin ujung bln9 quit n dia kta xpe dia sempt jugak dtg jmp yy .. tpi hal quit tu x sure lgi cmne citer .. so ttiba trase cam nak share with along .. i did told him la i fall in love with this 1 guy .. along suddenly said "xpelah , klau dah terscandal ngan org lain nak wat cmne" n yy ckp "tpi i cyg dia lah alongggg, bkn scandal pon"
ttiba along cam diam , pastu dia kta klau cmtu xyah jumpa dah laa . apsal lak ? jnji nak jmp kan ? eiyy along ni gelabah lah ! pastu dia mcm nak cepat2 letak phone .. eh knape ni ? yy plek lah , along cam nak back off dri yy je :( yy cyg dia .. cam abg lah tpi :) tpi , knape along cam x suka je yy ngan other guy . dlu mse aku dok nanges2 depan dia , dia kta "yaya , u kne tahan perasaan u . jgn cmni . kita bole kawan lama paham ! tpi , u kne control" sume org soh yy kontrol  .apa gelabah sgt ke aku ni :P tehehehe ! ok pape lah . sbnrnya hati ni dah kering .. along mybe x dtg jumpa yy kot .. yy ni terok sgt ke ? yy bkn lah nak ckp pe plak . lam hati ni mmg de imran je . so yy pon x kesah if along xnk dtg sbnrnya . am i bad ??? along , semua dah brubah along . ni bkn yy along yg dlu , ni yy lain lah along . sorry yer along :( jujur , yy rindu yy yg dulu ...

ttiba kan rasa cam nak jerit "knape kaw bodoh sgt yaya ??????"
kaw susah kan hati kaw ! kaw yg kejar cinta ! brape kali nak aja bia cinta cari kaw jgn kaw yg kejar cinta !!!! kaw ni mmg bodoh lah yy ! knape x sedar lgi ni ? wake up ok !

eh , tdi kan citer along . knape ttiba citer sal bodoh2 plak ni ?? klau dah mengarut je tu meaning jiwa kacau sgt lah ni ! dah lah :) catch up later yeah <3
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Monday, August 13, 2012

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hahaha sedaya upaya i korek2 gmbr u xnk bgi org kenal :P hahaha ! u soooo cute cyg :P hahaha !
well , genap sebulan ... x sangka yer :) sebulan kita ehem2 :P happy 1 monthlysary cyg <3 hahaha ! bby , im try my very best utk x menangis .. pndai x sy control jiwa ni :P bby , i miss u ! sy hope awk xkn penah lupa sy .. arini sy x mkn apa pon .. x de selera , ok bunyi mmg cam gedik pon , tpi mmg swear x mkn pe pon . cadang nak tnggu awk dtg bru kita mkn sesama nnt :P hope our plan every sabtu tu jadi ok cyg .. sy sedaya upaya ni cuba utk x menangis :P tpi rindu lah cyg .. sy rsa sy x lama ni , sudah nya quit jugak kot . byk kenangan nih .. sy x cukup kuat utk tahan semua nih . satu2 nya cara utk sy terima kenyataan ni , if i balek terus perak n x dtg2 cni lgi ! kita tgk dlu cmne yer cyg , sbb sy pon confius nih ! mcm awk sll ckp , control control cyg !! i miss u lah bby .. x bole nak ckp cmne dah .. ni pon ngah cuba utk x buat entry yg sedih2 :P mnggu ni jmp k cyg , love u <3

p/s : benci nengok pic mu yg atas nih :P


LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Saturday, August 11, 2012

just a kiss


Lyin’ here with you so close to me

It’s hard to fight these feelings when it feels so hard to breathe
Caught up in this moment
Caught up in your smile

I’ve never opened up to anyone

So hard to hold back when I’m holding you in my arms
We don’t need to rush this
Let’s just take it slow

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight

Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don’t want to mess this thing up
I don’t want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I’ve been waiting for my whole life
So baby I’m alright, with just a kiss goodnight

I know that if we give this a little time

It’ll only bring us closer to the love we wanna find
It’s never felt so real, no it’s never felt so right

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight

Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don’t want to mess this thing up
I don’t want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I’ve been waiting for my whole life
So baby I’m alright, with just a kiss goodnight

No I don’t want to say goodnight

I know it’s time to leave, but you’ll be in my dreams
Tonight
Tonight
Tonight

Just a kiss on your lips in the moonlight

Just a touch of the fire burning so bright
And I don’t want to mess this thing up
I don’t want to push too far
Just a shot in the dark that you just might
Be the one I’ve been waiting for my whole life
So baby I’m alright, oh, let’s do this right, with just a kiss goodnight
With a kiss goodnight
Kiss goodnight



love myimran <3

LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

hurt :(

hey doll , how r ya ? gosh , i cant believed that this might happened so soon .. last nyte i just back off from imran .. u knoe , what we planned .. x jadi pon . awal pulak beliau buat perangai .. im soo disappointed with what had happned . but i dunt hve any right to object it . im sad , seriously .. but this is d fact yaya ... i still hve my abg dolla aka pak usu ! gosh im so sad .. i really need along ryte now .. but along maybe busy x sempt nak kol or sumthing ... yy rindu lah diorg ... i love him , but sedar lah wahai hati .. hes attached to sumbody else ! u cant be his lover forever .. yeah , igt tu yaya :) im glad because dah sehari yy x jmp dia . but he try his very best to pujuk me back ... i knoe im just tipu diri sndri .. but imran was gone .. itu afendy ! bukn imran ure imagination lah yaya ! im good .. thnks to farah n shaman sbb menadah telinga dgr me mengadu n everything n to abg dolla to .. in my heart .. it is empty now .. but im not alone . i still hve my sugardoll farra , my heandsome buddy shaman , my lovely 'daddy' abg dolla n bla bla blaaaa ! i hope that im okay .. god bless me , tabah yer yaya :)
hakikatnya , dia x salah kaw yg bodoh ..
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Thursday, August 2, 2012

hope this is d best ..


hmm , where do i begin :P well , there .. official resignation letter ! today is 2nd august 2012 which i need to send this letter to directors . should u do this yaya ? gosh , it was a really really really bad fighting between me n imran last nyte . is that logic when he said he going to ignore me for this last month because im going to leave him soon . this is not what i want ! ego ! that is d only 1 word for dat guy ! he asked me to call him fendy start from last nyte but i refused to do so because i love my imran not fendy which actually they r d same peep . farah keep asking me to postpone at least until september oct or nov :P lol ! how ??? i cant darl ! i dont want to go but ... this is d fact . like seriously i cant even see that stupid mualaf anymore ! betul2 saket hati !!! i wanna be here lagi actually but i need to make a move .. i miss my home , family n all kat perak .. i already sign d letter n going to email to directors mybe tgh ari ni .. 
god , please tell me that this is d best for me !

my sugardoll farrah <3
i do love u . u r d best that i ever met ! i hope we will meet again when we further our study eh :) im sorry i need to go first n leave u alone here . but u still have d very best buddy shaman :) thnks for being honest to me n i really appreciated it ! im gonna miss my doll here but we will keep in touch until we meet again kat university nnt yeah :) a lot of things i wanna tell u how best u r but i cant say it in words ! that enough for u to knoe that deep in my heart i love u ! xoxo

mr.prabha
u r d best officer ever . seriously ! please dunt cry again yeah because i will feel guilty forever ! i do love u ! u r just like my father . i cant tell u how good u r ! for d first day im here , i thot u r d last person yg akan berbaik ngan i :P lol ! so kerek sumtimes :P but actually u r not , god , im gonna miss u sir ! i knoe how hard for u to accept this . u got new staff n they leave u again n again . i hope 1 day if u still here u will get ure new staff which as cool as kak ayu :P 

directors
how can i tell u guys . how concerned u guys to me . u provided me a very cool bed ha :P with a freezer :P thnks a lot yeah ! because of that cute freezer i can buy an ice cream n keep it in ure cute 1 :P many thnks for u guys :) with soft 1 k.rozzyta , d very lemah lembut pn.salmah , very annoying mr. muru n d caring 1 mr. santiran :) thnks a lot to u guys yeah <3

my imran <3
hey baby ... we not going to meet anymore .. thnks yeah for cyg me utk sekejap waktu :P u r such a great2 person ever . i love u cyg , but u r attached to somebody else . i always remembered by d time u asked me "knape kita x jumpa dulu ?" dont ask me that cyg because Tuhan tu bijak , dia lebih tau knape kita xde jodoh . however we still cant say that sbb mana tau kot2 mmg ada jodoh :P we never know what will happen soon is it ?? baby thnks yeah sbb ari2 tlg pakaikan losyen , korek telinga <euwwww> n do everything that i asked u to do . u mmg world ! trima kasih cyg , dlm waktu yg sgt sekejap ni , sy sempat bergadoh2 , merajuk2 , geletek2 hahaha ! but i hate when u asked me "cyg , kita ni nak berkasih2 ke ??" hahaha so stupid sumtimess ! u always lend me ure shoulder whenever i cried . thks cyg . phewww , how hard for me to forget u eh ! gosh , klau bole sy xnak tngglkan awak tpi ... masa mula2 awak dtg , sy x hadap pon nak tgk muka awak smpi lah mlm tu when we n abg dolla hve a lot of chitchattin , we get closer :) thnks cyg for mandikan hamster bru sy :) awak baik ... jgn terasa bila saya reject awk ajak kluar sama . bkn sy malu tpi sy x reti nak kluar shopping with other guy . ngan ibu o kakaks or gf xpe :P tpi kan aritu kita dah kluar pegi 99 bli jajan :P hahaha ! smpi mati pon sy xkan lupa bila sy x bgi sumer org tido n kita dgr abg dolla nyanyi lagu tamil !! hahah gila nyaaaaa :P cyg , saya x penah sama kan awk mcm lelaki lain . tu awk kne igt ok :) jgn terasa hati ngan sy . sy syg awk tpi sy janji sy akan lupakan awk bila kita dah cek out nnt :) tpi utk remove awk dri hati ni mungkin makan masa sket lah .. btol ckp awak , sy kena lebih berdikari :) satu je sy nak bgtau awk .. awak handsome lah pakai shirt putih :P

kencana crew
at least ! saket2 hati yaya kat bayu view hotel ni .. ada jugak kenangan terindah yaya kat cni :) brp mnggu after yy kerja , kencana crew came n check in here . they so sweet lah . igt lgi x post yaya regarding my birthday ? yeah , it was great ! eventho yaya x mkn kek tpi yy tlg suapkan je la ke mulut2 mereka :P best sgt . smpi le ni tnggl abg dolla , botak , adeq , uncle papit n of course imran :) yy rindu yg dlu .. tpi x tau lah jumpa ke tidak . hisyam n along , dorg kata nak dtg tambah2 lgi si along tu laaa . tpi yy x bgtau lgi yy nak resign ujung bulan nih . mybe x jumpa dah kot ... tpi korg mmg d best ever lah :) klau ttiba yy keje kencana kita jumpa yer :)
lots love <3

catchup later yeah <3 
lurve n hug !

LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Saturday, July 28, 2012

u stuck in my heart ...


hey doll , first of all sorry yeah imran i just stole ure pic from ure fb :P sorry ok ! well , almost month i ddnt update my realfanta .. i miss u babe :) hmm sbok sket :P 
owh be4 we start yy nak share bby khloya n lamlam yy dah xde :( mati sebb pe x tau ... hope they may rest in peace there ... ibu kejam buang dlm longkang je ! im not there so i dont knoe what happened ! im gonna miss them ! x sempat depa nak jadi penyu :P

imran ... 
what can i say bout him ... well , along cbok kat kapal .. 2 ari skli bru contact .. but i knoe how busy dia kat cna :) xpe lah ... last 2 weeks bila awang n wak nak cek out . imran cekin here . theres a new guy again ... but im not interested to befriend with him .. so , yy ignore jer coz i miss my along badly jugak ... but i dunt knoe what happened that make us closer n closer ... how can i describe bout what i feel ryte now . i like him . but he attached to somebody else . he did asked me , "bole i cyg u sket ?" apa yy nak jwb ? i cant take the risk anymore ... be with sumbody yg dah taken ... gosh ! but i cant deny it . i told him too i love him .. n in my mind , this is just for a while :) im single , i can do whatever i want n be with who ever i want :P who care ?? but this is soooo different ! i cant forget him at all ! i felt d jealous feeling whenever im with him .. gila lah !! im going to quit end of this month actually , but im waiting for him to leave first then i will leave too ... is that love ?? bullshit ! im not going to marry a welder ! but , syg ... how laaaa :( he did asked me , "can we just keep in touch later ?" n he did told me "im not going to contact u anymore after this ." either dia or me , we both confused .like everyday cakap merapu . hey we r not loving couple lah !! im counting ... like suddenly i remembered what ive told my ex , "im not going to hve a bf as long as i x dpt guy yg lagi bagus dri u  .."
n imran came in my life . totally imran is much much much better than rizal .. gosh ! again with d same situation .. but kali ni dfntly yy xkan let my feeling makan dri sndri is it ? so xpe lah , x slh if yy rsa cyg dia sket utk tempoh waktu yg sgt sekejap .. x lama mybe less than a month je ... then he leave n bye bye klang ... at least , be4 i resign , ade kenangan kat bayu view hotel ni :) tragis btol .. along laaa , awang sewel lgi :P , hanif yg ting tong lgi ... hisyam yg cnfident hensem lgi .. adeq yg rewang nya .. wak yg selenga nya :P yy xkan lupa lah sume nih ... diorg bombastic sgt !!! friends come n go yaya :) 
be strong ya n dont count it because it will hurt ureself ....

LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Thursday, July 12, 2012

kesian kan lah dia :P

hey doll good morning <3
well , yesterday i released everything to farrah , my gedik doll :) hahahaha ! actually i almost quit yesterday but suddenly my directors called me and asked me to come down to hotel because they have something to ask me . alamak x lain x bukan lah ni ! then they forced me to tell , so i just share with them about this stupid budak2 punya kes :P nak buat cmne kan ... rupanya2 , dorg pon dah mmg tau dia ni mmg talam dua muka ! by then , i bru sure yg actually i already choose d wrong friend ! goshhhh ! i ddnt said anything , but suddenly puan said "betul lah mr.santiran mmg kata dia ni talam dua muka pon" ... hmmm then mmg kecian lah dia , stress sgt kot :P they did told me at anytime they can kick her out because she is an outsider ... btol2 x sedar diuntung ! tpi ktorg byk nya kesian laa . dia ni nak attention sbnrnya .. so bagi kan je lah :) i dunt have to worry actually , people nowadays dorg berfikir sblm buat any spekulasi tpi klau spesis paleolitik mcm dia , mungkin x lah kot :) everybody at my back :) alhamdulillah , i will not say anything , just let them judge :) btw , what farrah n me promised insyallah we will do it next year :) kumpul duit byk2 dlu yer .. owh btw , yy dah plan nak bli galaxy tab nnt so doakan saya berjaya yer :P
love u guys !
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Tuesday, July 10, 2012

sementara bole bercakap :)

hey dolls , ok lets move to another story :) but this is not my story but a friend of mine .. btw my friend , she just moved to another place . with a new job n she did told me that she felt very happy to be there . then suddenly after a few month , she called me n told me sumthing bad about her new friend .. like when the first day she moved there she knew this 1 girl who is her housemate lah kan ... so she try to be nice to her . in a few days they get closer . but sumtimes , she can feel an uneasy feeling like she thinks that the girl was not too sincere to be her friend .. y ? she dunt knoe .. then , after few month somebody told her everything ... like whenever she's not there , this girl will start talking bad about her .. poor that girl :) like im going to 'mengilai' kuat2 whenever i remember about all the things she told others :


my friend is ....


gedik ....
asal depan lelaki je dah mula ........
asal kluar bilik nak kunci pintu , sape tah nak rembat barang dia ....
n some more laaa ...


see , how kampung was that ??? let her do lah whatever she wanna do ! omg , knape lah nak saket hati ... hmmm  how poor that girl kan . the most bad thing is klau dah benci jgn lah bermuka2 .. depan pijak semut x mati .. tpi blkng , dikutuk2 .. yeah 1 more thing .. kita ni klau benci org simpan je lah dlm hati ... jgn di buruk2 kan org tu dekat org lain ... kan x baik .. kesian tau , that girl pon dah silap , dia buruk2 kan my friend kat org lain tpi dia lupa klau dia bodoh , dia bole bodohkan org lain .. definitely nop :) yg others tu nak kan kepastian pegi tny my friend is it true n when they heard from d both side , so dorg tau who is true who is not .. ishhh3 ? luckily my friend x marah pon its just ktorg rasa funny sgt , mybe she wants an attention n tkot org lain berkawan nnt dia xde org nak kawan kot ... just look at her physically n mentally .. hancorr ! yeah , itu paling sedih . jadi my friend halal kan jelah apa yg dia nak buat .. biar lah dia kan 'senior' :P


p/s untuk diri sendiri jugak :
kita hidup kat dunia ni x lama .. kita x bole control apa yg kita suka , apa yg kita x suka .. so x salah klau kita benci org .. tpi jgn lah kita burukkan org .. mcm yaya sndri yy ade je kawan yg selekeh , busuk , xde adab dpn public .. tpi yy x penah bgtau dia sbb yy xnak dia kecik ati ... paling penting , klau kita x suka org jgn buruk2 kan org tu kat org lain .. sumtimes , mungkin kita cuma nak meluahkan .. tpi x terfikir ke , bila kita bercakap buruk pasal org lain , umpama kita nak bgtau kat org yg dibagitau tu jgn kawan ngan org tu .. ishh jahat tu . biar diri sendiri judge org tu sudah .. jgn pakat ramai2 nak boikot org . siapa lah kita ni nak kondem2 org betul x ? kdg2 x bole nak salahkan org mulut jahat ni pon jugak .. sbb mungkin dia dri background yg broken ? siapa tau .. so utk yg rsa diri di benci tu , x apa .. biarkan aje .. sementara dia boleh bercakap biar dia bercakap ... dia happy kan mcm tu ? awak pon akan happy jugak sbb scara x lansung awak tau ade org jealous dgn awak :) jadi ignore je anasir2 kotor ni , dunt let it close to you :) igt apa yg di pesan , better to not know than knowing :) 
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

happy belated birthday yaya :)


hey yaya ! happy belated birthday :) sweet 21 yeah !! well , u grow up fast yeah ... like cant belved it u already in a 20s zone ! so please wake up n be more mature :) make peoples feel easy to be with u :) for haters , forever u cant stop them hunny .. ok lets remind ure memories ! what was happened on 29th june 2012 ??? well , im lucky i got my buddies all the way from sapura kencana here :) well , along , hisyam , kecik , sham , botak , and some more guys (sorry i cant rmember ) lol ! they bought me a cake n it was wrote on top "HAPPY BIRTHDAY YAYAH" !! hahaha ! its cool yeah along :) they r sooo sweet . badly , i ddnt snap any picture because i dunt knoe y ! but its ok , it is forever cool as long as i keep here , deeeeppppppppp in my heart <3
they r soo sweet ! well , along just left to sabah n d rest will leave end of this july . hmm , rilex yaya ... friends come and go :) well , i miss along badly .. tpi nak buat cmne , everyday i just can talk to him less than 30mnts :( hanif , d crazy guy ever ! already left . so i lost my 'mengilai' frens again :) sigh , really miss along .... like everyday when i sleep , his 'topi kerja' will accompany me :) so , like we planned .. end of this year mybe along n hisyam will come again n look after me :) yeah , we will see :P

ok , so happy birthday yeah yaya'h' :P lol !

LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Thursday, June 28, 2012

another story created

hey dolls :) lamanya x update , phewww ^_^
well mybe utk time nih yy x bole update with any picture sbb rsa cam mls je nak cri pic :) well , a lots of thing that i need to tell actually but like seriously im sooo busy so i dunt hve time to update this lovey realfanta >_<
soo , like everybody knows that now ni mmg jerebu kuat kan ... so ive got a very bad cough and cant talk nicely :P hahaha batok cakap btok cakap ! well , it almost 3 weeks n my cough dah better sket :) c , 2 botol ubat ok ! but ni pon mmg btok2 jugak ... sabau je lah !
talk about work , hmm cam biasa lah , wif my very annoying manager . well , dlu dia annoying but now he is a fucking bullshit bastard n what so ever ! like seriously every day ade je yg x kena ... dia ni mmg nak kne lempang kot ngan yy bru dia sedar ! u know he created this 1 stupid rumor regarding me ! fuck off lah makan dia ! mmg btol lah when all directors said dia ni mmg busuk hati , bawak mulut pasal mr. prabha bagai ! kan dah kantoi japgi dia pon x berani nak angkt muka da ... hmm memacam hal kan :) dah lah bodoh , hati pon busuk ... sedih btol ! well , im not going to back off at all actually u know . because i hve all directors n farah behind me . so this fucking stupid kayu can just back off ! i dunt hve to mention about what kind of rumor he had created here but it is enuff for me to said that im not going to forgive him as long as he didnt ask a forgiveness or whatever . pegi lah jalan klau kaw e.o ke apa ke :) bila sume citer dah kluar bru nak mngelabah pnggl dtg opis ckp x sronok klau yy dtg keje wat muka x happy ngan dia . eh of coz lah klau mulut kaw dah mcm taik ! then what u wanna me aspect anymore ?? dah x ksian dah kali ni , sorry lah but this time mmg dah xleh tgk dah muka si kayu nih ! lets just wait what is going to happen next kan . so anything yy akan update lgi ok :)


p/s : happy birthday yaya :)
(first wisher yeay :)
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Tuesday, June 5, 2012

:(

hey evryone ...
it almost 3 weeks like im here in bayu view hotel ... i dunt kne either i still can say yes im happy or not ... im so sorry but i really have to say this ... almost 3 weeks im here , i started to knoe every single people here ... im going to say like every one is good here including all my 'org besar' from the HQ :) but since 3 days ni i felt like im not me anymore .... its like i cannot say what i feel n what i want :( this morning , while im busy handling sumthing with mr.eddy then suddenly HQ called me n i forgot to say like 'hello, morning bayu view hotel" so she asked me 'whos there' ? nah , i cannot tipu anymore . i have to say like 'its yaya puan' :p there u r , kne tego lah sbb i forgot to say those such word by the time i pickup the phone ... end of this week , my parent will come here to check either me ok , happy safe here or not . suddenly i felt like im going to follow my parent back to perak :( im not happy .... i want my parent here .... i need my adeq to talk with ... i fall in love with all kind people here but this 1 guy kan , very annoying ! like im going to say IM DONE !!!!! yy dah mcm org bodoh kat cni .... ibu always remind me like "kakyang , klau x sronok kat cni tros kol nnt ibu dtg ambik ..." i miss my ibu :( like ... i dunt knoe what to say ... x kan nak lari dri keje kan ... smpi bila nak lari ... i dont want to quit !! but its like i need to go ... eh come on lah yaya bru 3 weeks ! yeah , n mr.santiran started to scold me because of my stupid mistake . i hate this situation ! x spatutnya me keep telling everybody dgn reason yg sama ... i dunt knoe . i hate klang because nothing here . but it is like impossible for me to leave my caring mr.prabha ... my funny n gedik miss farah :P my havoc kak yana ... im not going to leave them ! i dont knoe ... its like im sooo lost ! everything is ok kat cni ... tpi 3 ari ni bengkak hti je yy tgk dat guy .. y lah .... i need to be more strong like nothing happen :) today is tuesday .. got another 3 days for me to count n think ! do i need to stay here or just leave . i need to relax ... think ! siapa yg btol n siapa yg slh actually ... lets c what wll happen tmorrow n once yy got bamboooo from the aid then im going to say bye2 klang :)
love n hug :)
LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Monday, May 28, 2012

laugh , stresss , sad , afraid ^_^


hey klangiansss n perakiansss n all d malaysiannssss :)
how can i ekspressss kan what i feel right now :) soooso happy to be here :) with all k.yana , k.ros , farah , k.ayu n d kumbang here shaman n wan :) they r fabs <3 ari2 gelak je .. . so far a lots of perangai me faced here n it was cool . smlm ahad kan , so yy off day . but im still came to hotel n tolong k.yana wif the housekeeping :) da pandai ok ! pndai tukar sarung bantal je :P then help her count all the loundry until 2am ok ! today , sronok jugak :P sbb pgi2 dah nmpk guest from sabah yg hensem n cute staring n smile to me :p x tau lah plak klau i yg prasan but tdi when we terselisih kat lif they try to make sum wif blocking me :) aucchh ! hahaha :P n they greet me wif hai :) omgeees ! i cant imagine it . n then late evening when im so depresss wif this mr , i ran away from d front desk n ive met this 2 mr's n i dunt knoe like suddenly yy luahkan what i felt that time . so stress wif the overrrrload works ! then they advised me like crazy . luckily x cry2 :P touched because they very concerned bout me ! then going to downstairs , ive met this mr.s hahaha ! hensemmmm :p i dunt knoe , all my bossssss very concerned bout me n it makes me to jatuh hati dgn mereka . so al the time i saw them jantung ni mcm dupdupdupdup :P hmm , its so pelek u know , ari2 all this feeling came out all together .. sumtimes i can handle it . but sumtimes when i felt so tertekan sebb ditekan i always got sumbody to talk to :) thnks very mucchhssssss <3 arini mcm biasa keje yg x penah abes ... so esok im going to settle all martin's work n mr.khalid n have fun :) hope esok bole terserempak lgi wif the hensemessss sabah bhaaaa guys :P like seriously im typing all dis mengarut things while smiling ... alone !!! im happy here . alhamdulillah god protect me , my very best bosssss n blablablaaaa ...
love hug angels <3


wif d beauty n little girl fasha :) she quit already n smbung study kat matrix :) 


me , farah , fasha n k.ros ;)


me wif fasha while her last day <3


d hujung 1 is k.yana . my protecter , my sys , my jiran sblah bilek n my mengilai geng :P


LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Thursday, May 24, 2012

a very greatest days :)


hey world :) thank god finally ive got time n d line to update my realfata :) what im going to say here , my every single day in klang was aaawwwsum !! yy blom lgi ade mse to hang out enywhere but my frens around me ... superb !! kerja yy fun sgt . everyday is a very busy day . yy kne catch up utk admin n help sumtimes utk front desk :) so it was awsome :) boss yaya baik sgt . director yg concerned :) boss yg cool :) sooo in love to be here <3 sorry yy mmg x byk masa nak update but in a simple way yy nak bgtau yy happy sgt . hope ibu n ayh x risau lgi pasal yy because i already hve my kak yana , mr khalid n all d cool peeps around me :) once ive got time definitely yy akan update lgi ok :) love u guys n hug <3

LiVe LaUgH LoVe

Saturday, May 19, 2012

like u fighting wif ureself lah kan ....

hai , yy dah nak abes packing da .. rsanya ckop lah dlu ni kot .. baju sume dah bawak just tinggalkan baju yg yy confirm xkan muat dah je haha :P klau bole yy mmg nak sgt nain n kakcik yg hantar yy ke klang . tpi ibu bekeras gak kunun dia nak jugak tgk tempt tu selamat ke tidak ke .. walau pon ..... itu cuma alasan !!!
bukan yy x tau . suami ibu tu x hadap pon nak bawak yaya ke klang . n fahami lah . saya pon x nak mngemis :) susahnya jadi anak ni ... salah sket kaw considered salah ... tapi klau seorang itu namanya ayah .... kaw buat lah apa pon kaw lah yg paling bagus dalam dunia ni ! sronok nya .... klau cmni lah yg betulnya , sorry , sumpah mmg xlah aku nak jadi bapak kepada anak2 :) sorry lah . klau ini lah yg dinama kan biadap atau anak derhaka ... anggap jelah aku dah ready untuk pegang title tuh :) hati aku saket tahap neraka . tpi aku cuma seorang anak ... arini dah msok 3 ari ayah aku x tegor aku . korg tau x knape ? sebb ari selasa aritu ibu n ayah bwk angah pegi shah alam utk convo . ibu jga babies ramai kan ? so aku dipertanggungjawabkan utk menjaga budak2 tuh .. ok je aku xde hal .. ayah aku ade habit tau .. habit dia yg dia rsa bagus sgt mcm ni ... everytime ktorg adeq beradik kuar ke jalan2 ke tanpa dia . dia akan keep call smpi lah the time ktorg smpi umah . korg tau knape ? atas alasan risau ! concern kan ayah aku ? ayah korg mcm tu ? klau dia x camtu rugi lah korg :P secara matang nya aku rsa di protect oleh ayh aku yg concern sgt hal anak2 . skarang umur aku dah 21 taun . aku x ckap aku dah ckop bgus untk hidup sendiri . tapi yelaa , klau ditakdirkan kita mati excident ke kene bunuh ke tu sume dah tentu apa yg ditulis oleh Allah msa kita dah bernyawa dalam perut mak kita kan ... ade org lak kata , 'kalau dah ajal , dalam kelambu pon bole mati' :) ok so ari depa g convo tu aku jaga lah babies ni dgn tenangnya .. as usual lah ayah mmg x berenti kol lah kan . ttiba faris gado ngan taqif berebut kereta mainan . sinchan pulak berak meleceh2 ! utk seorang remaja yg berumur 21 taun yg still belom hadap nak pikul tanggungjawab utk menjaga 6 org budak kecik termasok babies korg rasa apa aku rsa bila kena hadap sume nih ? like seriously hati aku saket sgt kne cuci pungkok budak nih . diamkan budak2 yg gado nih . rsa cam nak smack down je budak2 nih . tpi interm 'cute' lah :P tpi kan ayah x nmpk tau sume tuh . sebb ? sbb dia kat shah alam lah aku kat umah :P so dia pon mula balek kol n kol n kol ! mmg x lah aku nak angkt kan ! hati , telinga kepala hotak aku ni dah naik bebal dah ngan haru biru umah yg bising dgn sore depa ditambah deringan telefon yg x henti2 !! x rsa nak memaki ke ? tpi ayah x phm . sbb dri umo aku 7 taun ibu dah mula mengasuh baby smpi laaa ni mne lah penah ayah yg jaga depa ! jadi mmg dia x phm . bila kali ke brp ratus dia kol n hati dah bengkak sgt aku terus angkt n ckp "sabar jap bole ?? depa ni menangis lah berak lah bole x jgn kol je ???" then aku letak phone .. ok , so harini dia still x ckp ngan aku sbb dia beranggapan aku ni biadap laaa . sorry der , siapa kita hari ini adalah apa yg kita dididik dlu :) serius aku x tipu tpi dia mmg marah btol ngan aku . ari2 dia perli aku . smpi aku nak jamah makanan dlm umah ni pon rsa cam aku ni hanjing yg nak mintak sket taik depa nak buat makan :) sronok nya jadi anak nih ! korg tau x , ayah aku pon pangai 2x5 je . dia pon klau hangin kan then dia jawab telfon ktorg kan . dia tinggi suara sket then potpetpotpet tup tros letak phone . tpi sape yg bole anggap itu biadap ?? walaupon .... sbb dia kan ayah ! untungnya ... adeq bradik aku jenis x mkn saman tau , stakat melawan sket2 tu , korg jgn ckp korg x penah bantah parent korg pulak mmg xlah aku nak caye .. so dah kne marah tu nnt adeq aku pon buat muka .. kang ayah aku tengking , 'kena tegor sket muka dah rupa *(&&^%" !!! aku cool je sbb aku x rsa apa aku buat slh . dah 3 ari ayah dingin ngan aku tpi sape yg berani bgtau dia yg muka dia sumpah mmg betol2 x ubah mcm (*&^% ** ????? bia anak kena maki jgn ayah . bia anak tu kne tegor jgn ayah !! ye lah aku admit dia kol2 sllu sebb risau . dia marah sbb nak mngajar . tpi klau jap ketika nya asyik kol , aku rimas . frankly , adeq beradik aku sumer rimas . tpi depa patuh sket kot . kutuk2 belakang then lupakan .. tapi aku x , hati aku , diri aku , mmg xleh trima sume benda mngarut nih ! mungkin itu yg menjadikan aku ni anak yg paling dibenci :) ini pendapat aku . memegang title ayah , guru besar , super manager , org alim atau ketua segala ketua . x menjadi kan diri mereka sempurna n sentiasa betul . kadang2 mereka perlu ditegor :) tpi siapa yg berani tego . jujur , ayah mmg x suka aku sbb aku yg asyik nak menjawab jer . tpi aku x penah ckp ayah aku bangang lak .   msa korg kecik2 mak ayah korg mesti de ajar kan , jgn menjerit2 time maghrib . pegi mandi semayang jgn men kat luar . jadi bila dah besar ni . kdg2 time2 nak maghrib tu ayah marah kan adeq yg lupa nak buang sampah . rumah yg x ber mop . n aku kta " ya Allah , dah maghrib ni ayaaaah" n he shout back ! "ya Allah , ya Allah" !! kecian kan jadi anak . mmg x bole tegor bapaknya .. sbb klau dah nama ayah tu mmg sentiasa btol kot . jadi aku salah ke ??? byk lah klau nak citer . tpi aku mls nak amek point . xpelah klau nak benci , go ahead . hati ni dah xde tempt utk terluka lagi :) untuk cerita pasal hati ayah pulak yg terluka , apa yg betul adalah . dia mmg benci aku , jadi apa pon aku buat mmg dia xkan suka !!! jadi aku buat elok ke x elok ke tetap x elok ! jadi aku xde mse nak amek port bila hati dia terluka . sbb aku xnk keliru sndri :) klau cmni lah rupanya seorg ayah . biar aku x beranak , sbb aku xnk anak aku rsa apa yg aku rsa . bia anak aku x berbapak , dari hati dia terluka selalu kan .. aku tulis sume nih pon , sbb aku mmg nak luahkan apa yg aku rsa . lecturer aku berpendapat lebih baik kita bercakap dgn org tu sndri ... gila kaw ! bukan takot ! tapi xnk digelar anak x sedar di untung . melihat cara dia melayan aku selama ni . kdg2 aku rsa mcm aku bukn anak dia . yeah like sesetengah anak rsa :P so unmatured ! aku mmg anak dia tpi dia x hadap nak jadi bapak aku kot :) xpe lah , skarang aku x guna . nnt aku dah ade duit , aku bgi depa duit . aku cuba adekan apa yg xde . mungkin itu bole buat dia rsa aku brharga.  aku x mengharap pon , tpi aku cuma nak buktikan yg aku ni x lah haprak sgt . klau dia nak marah aku nak benci aku nak saket hati ngan aku , terpulang lah sebab aku x bole nak trase hati . bergadoh lah anda dgn dri sendiri :) klau ini mnyebabkan aku confirm jadi ahli neraka sbb derhaka , biar lah , aku x mmpu nak elak semua nih . apa yg aku tulis , itu yg terbuku kat hati .. esok aku nak berambus dari umah ni dah , pecaya lah . ayah mesti org yg paling bahagia . aku xkan balek kat umah ni lagi . melainkan bila aku rsa betol2 diterima je . aku pon xnk mngemis2 nih . ye , aku tau depa ssh2 didik aku dri kecik utk jadi 'anak x guna' . tpi aku x blek bukn sbb nak jadi si tanggang , tpi sbb aku pon de prasaan , aku pon malu dok umah dia tpi dia meluat ngan aku . jgn isau , jasa ayah tu aku kenang . aku akan cuba bank in duit utk dia n ibu setiap bulan . xyah citer lah yg ayah mendamba kan kasih syg aku ! haha yg tu aku rsa sumpah mmg dia pon x hadap nak tgk aku syg dia . dia pon blm tentu nangis klau dia jumpa bangkai aku kat mana2 . ishh senng citer mmg dia benci aku ahh ! me rebel aku di buat nya :p aku bank in duit kat dia . anak2 dia yg dia syg tu bole syg dia balek kan :) so fair ;) aku x tau pon klang tu slamat mcm perak ke x . tpi klau nak jadi pape tu kat mne2 pon bole jadi :) aku pecaya takdir Allah :) jadi , aku harap ibu bole sntiasa sebutkan perkara yg baik2 utk aku . hope bila aku dah xde kat umah ni lgi . hati aku tenang tambah2 lagi hati ayah ! hahaha :) n hope aku xde mslh kerja kat klang tuh . so aku mintak ampunlah kat ayah even dia mmg benci aku kan . yg penting aku mintak maaf byk2 . hmmm , knape lah semua ni jadi :) aku harap suami aku n ayah anak2 aku nnt xlah mcm ni .. aku xnk anak aku pon sentap je :P 
ckop lah ayah aku sorg .....
ok lah , esok dah nak pegi daaa . korg pon doakan lah aku yer :) 
bye


LiVe LaUgH LoVe